Saturday, 10 October 2020

I read (most of) the 2020 shortlist for the Women's Prize for Fiction

One of the United Kingdom’s most prestigious literary awards, the Women’s Prize for Fiction was first awarded in 1996, and was established after the shortlist for the 1991 Booker Prize for Fiction included no female authors, despite 60% of novels published that year being written by women. In 2020, the Women’s Prize celebrated its 25th year with a diverse collection of literature from a variety of exciting authors. In an effort to catch up on some of modern history’s most critically acclaimed fiction, I set myself the assignment of reading all of this year’s nominees. From favourite to least favourite, here are my thoughts on (most of) this year’s shortlist for the Women’s Prize for Fiction. 


Note: Although it appeared on the shortlist, I did not read The Mirror and the Light by Hilary Mantel as I haven’t read the first two books in the Wolf Hall trilogy. 


Girl, Woman, Other by Bernardine Evaristo

Girl, Woman, Other is a triumph of modern fiction, a prime example of exceptional literary talent that is not only meticulously crafted, but also performs a “sweeping history of the black British experience” (Gay, 2019). A polyphonic collection of character studies, the novel examines the lives of twelve black, British women throughout the last century, and was published in 2019 to a torrent of accolades: joint-winner of the 2019 Booker Prize, a Sunday Times bestseller, one of Barack Obama’s 19 Favourite Books of 2019, and identified as Book of the Year in 25 different publications, including Oprah Magazine and TIME. It’s a high-profile piece of fiction, and for very good reason.


As a white woman, I couldn’t relate to a scrap of Girl, Woman, Other, but I loved it nonetheless. Informational and entertaining, the novel gave me incredible insight into a wide variety of black, female experiences, and the diversity of challenges that black women have encountered during the last century. My absolute favourite thing about this book is how many different intersections of womanhood it examined. Race, class, sexuality, gender identity, historical context; Evaristo considered it all, and I learned so much about so many different black/female experiences, and how the intersections of these different facets of personhood affect the way that women interact with the world, and how the world interacts with them. One of my favourite character studies in this book was that of Dominique, and her abusive relationship with Nzinga. It’s rare to see stories of domestic abuse in same sex couples; they’re often portrayed as more harmonious and idyllic than heterosexual relationships, but this isn’t universal, and it’s important to share stories about same sex domestic abuse and to acknowledge that abusive behaviour isn’t unique to men; women can be abusers, too. I also enjoyed Yazz’s perspective. Her youthful, righteous indignation was reminiscent of the fiery feminism that I paraded in  my teens, and as the teens say, we do love to see it. I felt this novel was a shoo-in for the Women’s Prize, and I’m grieved that it didn’t win; there is such invaluable perspective to be gained from this novel, and I feel that not awarding it the Prize was a missed opportunity. 



Dominicana by Angie Cruz

Set in the Dominican Republic and New York City in 1965, Dominicana is the story of Ana Cancion, a Domincan teen who marries a man twice her age and moves with him to NYC. Ana feels no love for her husband, Juan, but she cannot refuse him when he proposes and promises to take her to New York; in 1965, the Domincan Republic was on the brink of civil war, and Ana’s marriage to Juan will eventually allow her family to immigrate to New York, a city synonymous with opportunity. Initially, Ana is lonely and miserable, but when Juan returns home to protect his family’s land from the civil disorder, Ana is free to make friends, take English lessons, see movies, go dancing, and fall in love with Juan’s charismatic younger brother, Cesar. When Juan returns, Ana must make an impossible choice: follow her heart and flee with Cesar, or stay and observe her duty to her family. 


I often gravitate towards novels that explore countries and cultures with which I’m not familiar. The Shadow King by Maaza Mengiste is my most anticipated nominee on the 2020 Booker Prize shortlist for this reason, and Dominicana had the same allure; I’ve read hardly any fiction set in the Dominican Republic and knew nothing of the Dominican Civil War before I started reading this book, so I appreciated the history lesson as well as the exposure to a greater diversity of characters. I disliked the writing style of this book  — I don’t know about you, but I’m quite partial to speech marks, and their absence in Dominicana made the reading experience more stilted and less enjoyable. That being said, I thought the story was remarkable, and found Ana an enduring young woman on a powerful and moving journey. Her life is hard and often miserable, but it is not without its pleasures, and it was interesting to bear witness to Ana’s various triumphs and tragedies; the book did not have a neat, conclusive narrative arc, but instead acted as a window into a year of Ana’s life, with its unpredictable rhythm and unrelenting motion. I have a love/hate relationship with the ending of Dominicana for that reason. I appreciated that the ending Cruz chose was the most faithful to how the life of a Dominican living in 1960s New York might have progressed, but I wanted something happier for Ana; I wanted things to resolve in the way that would make her most content, but I recognise that the bleak ending is a testament to Cruz’s realistic storytelling. Although I never thought that Dominicana was strong enough to secure the prize, I certainly appreciated its nomination; authors like Angie Cruz have important stories to tell, and characters like Ana have invaluable lessons to impart on people like me. 


A Thousand Ships by Natalie Haynes

A Thousand Ships is a retelling of the Trojan War from the perspective of the women who suffered from it the most: Penelope, Cassandra, Polyxena, Hecabe, Clytemnestra, Creusa of Troy, and the Muse Calliope all offer their own perspective on history’s most famous and most fictionalised war. Classical history is dominated by the mythos of men, and A Thousand Ships joins the growing trend of retelling ancient fables from the female perspective. 


I’ll start by saying that I enjoyed this book, and I loved all of the differing perspectives that Haynes included; it was a neat touch to consider how women were impacted by the genesis and resolution of the Trojan War, as well as by its duration. However, I couldn’t shake the feeling while reading that I had read this all before. I read The Silence of the Girls by Pat Barker last year and Circe by Madeline Miller the year before that, and the conceit of A Thousand Ships — retell Greek myth from the female point of view — was relatively indistinguishable from that of its predecessors. The Silence of the Girls in particular did almost the exact same thing as A Thousand Ships did, and although I acknowledge that both are good books, they felt too similar for me to enjoy A Thousand Ships more than I did. It was an interesting and well-written novel, but it didn’t bring much fresh perspective that I haven’t encountered before in novels about the Battle of Troy. I wish I could have more to say about this book because I really do love classical fiction, but to be honest, it was largely forgettable and didn’t leave a notable impact. I respect the amount of research that Haynes must have done while writing this book, but I would have liked to see a more unique take on the women of Troy. 


Weather
by Jenny Offill

Beginning in an environment not dissimilar to the onset of the Trump administration, Weather is a strange, irreverent, and meditative book about Lizzie Benson, an untrained librarian with a side job for which she is equally unqualified: she’s a fake therapist, providing advice to everyone from unwitting students checking out library books to her younger brother, a recovering addict with a baby on the way. On top of this, Lizzie is hired by her old mentor — a woman named Sylvia who has become famous for her prophetic podcast, High or Hell Water — to answer the mail she receives from listeners of the show. 


Weather was a middle-of-the-road read for me. I’ve read it, and yet I feel like I don’t know anything about it; it aims to be aloof and mysterious, but in this pursuit, it became too detached for me to extract anything from it. I wasn’t blown away, nor was I sucked in; aside from the occasional chuckle at an amusing sentence, I felt nothing towards this book aside from an appreciation for how short it is. The writing style is sparse, disconsonant, and impersonal, and although I did get a sense of how Lizzie floated idly through her life, I didn’t feel a connection with her or any of the supporting characters; I feel as though Offill didn’t give me a chance, so impartial is the writing. I liked the general vibe, but even as I was reading, the words were slipping out of my head. Whatever this book was trying to teach me, it did so in too few words for me to take away anything of meaning. I’m disappointed that I didn’t enjoy this more, because the concept is quite intriguing and if I were to read the same story written in a more conventional narrative format, I’m sure I would have loved it. Unfortunately, this freeform, experimental style of writing was not compatible with me, and did not convince me to try any more of Offill’s bibliography. I know this book won’t go over everyone’s heads, but it did go over mine, and because of this, it was the least memorable book on the shortlist, although certainly not my least favourite. 


Hamnet by Maggie O’Farrell

Hamnet was inspired by Maggie O’Farrell’s fascination with the unfortunate life of William Shakespeare’s only son, who died at age 11 of unconfirmed causes (likely of bubonic plague). Yet although the novel is named for the young boy, its central character is arguably Agnes, O’Farrell’s witchy interpretation of Shakespeare’s wife, Anne Hathaway. A woman with mysterious gifts, unusually attuned senses, and a natural instinct for homeopathic remedies, Agnes moves with her husband (his identity as the world’s most famous playwright is alluded to, but never explicitly mentioned) to Henley Street, Stratford, and bears three children: a daughter, and then twins, a girl named Judith and a boy named Hamnet. When Hamnet dies at age 11, Agnes is torn apart by her grief, and when, four years later, her husband writes a play bearing their deceased son’s name, she feels as if her child has been stolen from her a second time (Merritt, 2020). 


I’m not afraid to say it: this was the worst book on the shortlist, and I’m disappointed that it ended up winning. It brought nothing to the table in terms of being current or relevant to the modern climate in any way. I’m certainly not saying that if a person of colour is nominated for a prize amongst a group of white people, the person of colour should win by proxy. What I am saying is that the POC authors with books on the shortlist wrote better, more interesting, and more relevant novels than Hamnet, all of which were far more deserving of the award. To critique the book itself, I felt that Hamnet began far too slowly and maintained its dragging pace throughout the rest of the book to ill effect. It was slow and boring, and slowness isn’t always a bad thing in books, but O’Farrell also gave no reason to like any of the characters or care much about their well-being. To be fair, I did think that Hamnet was a sweetheart, and I was very intrigued by the witchy elements of Agnes’s characterisation and appreciated the element of magical realism. That being said, there’s nothing else I liked about this book. I spent the majority of my time reading waiting for it to be over, and the only times I’ve thought about it since were spent hoping it didn’t win the prize, and then lamenting when it did. There were so many more interesting and important stories that deserved the recognition, and it strikes me as awfully ignorant for a book like this to win when other books clearly deserved it more. 


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Monday, 17 August 2020

THE HORUS HERESY: HORUS RISING by Dan Abnett (2006)

 


"How will history judge us fairly if it doesn't have the truth to read?"

        When I first met my lovely boyfriend, one of the first things I learned about him was that he is a big fan of Warhammer. A tabletop miniature war game set in the year 40,000, Warhammer has a massive fan base and an even bigger story world, encompassing dozens of different species, religions, armies and more into its extensive ethos. Over the four years of our relationship, I have spent countless hours ‘listening’ as my boyfriend explains the various aspects of the extended Warhammer universe, and this year, in an effort to show more engagement with his interests, I bought Horus Rising, the first in the 54-book Horus Heresy series that takes place during “a fictional galaxy-spanning civil war occurring 10,000 years prior to Warhammer 40,000” (“The Horus Heresy”, 2020). I thought it would be a cute combination of our interests if I, a prolific reader, read a novel about one of my boyfriend’s main hobbies. Here are my thoughts. 


        I had no expectation of loving Horus Rising, but I did approach with an open mind, and though I shudder to confess it, there were things I quite enjoyed. My favourite element was the main character, Garviel Loken (although the book incorporates multiple perspectives, I’d argue Loken was the protagonist). Loken is an ‘Astartes’, a war-bred warrior (also known as a space marine) who has been granted superhuman strength through genetic modification. He begins the novel as captain of the Tenth Company of the Luna Wolves — the High Commander/’Primarch’ of which is Horus, the titular character — but is quickly promoted to the ‘Mournival’, Horus’s advisory counsel. I liked Loken for his steady demeanour. Astartes are bred not to feel fear, but even so, Loken’s composure was admirable, and I liked that he was curious about the world(s) around him while also maintaining loyalty to his Primarch, and to the Imperium for which he serves. Loken and his fellow soldiers serve under the Imperium of Man, a “galaxy-spanning interstellar empire” ruled by the Emperor of Mankind (Fandom, n.d.). While not a literal god, the Emperor is revered with godlike wonder by his followers and acts as “the ultimate authority for the majority of the human race” (ibid). Armed with absolute confidence in the way of life proclaimed by the Emperor, his armies are on a planet-by-planet crusade to bring deviant nations to heel. Only Loken has doubts. He wonders why it is necessary to convert, often through brute force, all of these societies when they previously coexisted peacefully; perhaps the Emperor’s model is too stringent, and nations that aren’t openly hostile could be allowed to practise their own social and religious behaviour. Although he never fully wavers from his loyalty, we see the seeds of doubt being sown as Loken questions the necessity of their merciless crusade, and I enjoyed the empathy he brought to a host of characters that were essentially bred to not feel emotions.


        I have two major complaints about Horus Rising, the first of which being that if my boyfriend didn’t have Warhammer trivia spilling out of his ears, I would have had no idea what was going on in this book. We are thrown straight into the action without any exposition or introduction; the casual reader clearly was not considered when Abnett was writing, for we seem to be expected to know everything right from the offset without any explanation of who characters are or what any of the words in the lengthy list of fantastical jargon mean. For a fantasy universe with such a rich and detailed lore, it was frustrating that there was no exposition and that I had to keep looking up who people were and what words meant because Abnett assumed that I was already a Warhammer fan. Perhaps Abnett was aware of this while writing, or didn’t anticipate anyone other than Warhammer players to read the novel, because a particular line in the final quarter of the novel was eerily tongue-in-cheek: speaking of an ancient text Loken is perusing, Abnett notes that “there were invocations to dark, primordial gods that the writer clearly thought his audience would have some prior knowledge of” (Abnett, 2006, p.333). Whether Abnett was blissfully unaware of the irony, or he was referencing his own penchant for skimping on detail, I felt the novel suffered from its lack of exposition; it alienates casual readers, and people trying to learn more about the Warhammer universe from this book will need to supplement their research with a healthy amount of Google searches and/or a boyfriend who has endless energy for answering questions about the game. 


        My second complaint about Horus Rising is that the number of women that appeared was woefully low. Reading Reddit threads and Goodreads reviews, I learned that the reason why space marines are all men is because only men can be genetically modified to become space marines — one Reddit user explained that “space marines are created using the genes from their chapter’s Primarch, which are basically clones of the emperor. All of these genetic enhancements bond to the Y chromosome”. When asked why the space marines are an all-boys club, fans can point to the fluff: women are genetically disabled from joining. This is called the ‘Thermian Argument’, a method of “arguing around criticism by simply using the in-universe explanation for why something is the way it is” (McConnaughy, 2016). Yes, the fluff states that science discludes women from becoming space marines, but this science is completely fictional. It’s “made-up science for a made-up world”; there is nothing stopping Games Workshop (the manufacturer of all Warhammer-related products) from changing the lore to fit women into the narrative, and there is no reason why they shouldn’t adjust that narrative going forward. Warhammer draws much of its aesthetic and stylistic inspiration from fantasy fiction, a genre set predominantly in medieval times (“Warhammer 40,000”, 2020). It’s understandable that women are misrepresented in this way when the story is inspired by the Middle Ages, a time not known for its progressive feminism; yet I would be more understanding if the narrative of Warhammer actually tackled its internal sexism. I’m understanding of women being oppressed/misrepresented in fiction if there is an element to the narrative that actively criticises this oppression and misrepresentation, but as far as I can tell, the space marines are sexist for the sake of being sexist. Stories have no obligation to be about sexism or misogyny, but I do think that if a story is going to perpetuate some sexist ideas, it has a responsibility to either own up to them, or use them in a productive and progressive way. 


        I do intend on continuing with this series. Despite some critical failings, Horus Rising was an entertaining book with characters that showed unexpected moral depth, and I am interested to see where the story goes in the next few books. Although Warhammer may be wildly outside of my realm of usual interest, I love my boyfriend, and I’m happy to continue reading these books just to see how happy it makes him when I engage with something he loves. 


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Sunday, 12 July 2020

LOVELESS by Alice Oseman (2020)



“‘Ha. I guess I’m a bit jealous.' 

‘Why?’ I asked, confused. 

She looked at me. ‘I just wasted a lot of time. That’s all.’”


    When I was 17, I realised I was asexual. It took me a long time to come to this realisation, and once I had, the remainder of my teens and early 20s were spent searching for asexual representation in popular media. It’s unsurprising, therefore, that Alice Oseman’s latest novel, Loveless — an own-voices coming out story about an aromantic asexual girl in her first year of university — has been high on my list of anticipated book releases for this year. Although I have graduated out of the target demographic for Loveless, I was still excited to see what Alice could bring to the table. 


As an own-voices reviewer, this is the most authentic asexual representation I have ever read. The protaganist, Georgia, is feeling lost and isolated; all of her peers are having sex and falling in love, but Georgia has never even been kissed, and she feels like she’s falling behind. She knows she’s supposed to want all these things, and she wants to want them, but everytime she finds herself in a romantic or sexual situation, she balks, and she can’t understand why. Is something wrong with her? Has something broken inside her? I could relate to Georgia so strongly here; when I was her age, I was obsessed with the idea of falling in love, but whenever the opportunity arose, I bolted. Another part of Georgia’s journey that I found very genuine was her dismay upon discovering how often non-asexual people think about sex. She is shocked to discover she is relatively alone in the fact that she never pictures anyone in her masturbatory fantasies — she never even pictures herself in them — and is discouraged to find that most other people think about sex a lot, if not all, of the time. This was the part of Georgia’s journey with which I identified the most. Realising that my aversion to sex was not universal was the thing that made me feel the most as if there was something wrong with me — if everyone but me was excited about sex, how would anyone ever fall in love with me or want to be with me? Unlike Georgia, I’m not aromantic, but I still resonated with her fear that she would never be loveable. There were smaller details, too: Georgia learns about asexuality from a friend who confidently identifies that way, which is how I first heard of it, too. She Google searches “am I gay?” and takes the Kinsey Scale test online, finding the results as unsatisfying as I found them. She’s afraid to come out to anyone because she worries she’ll be told she’s weird, and she’s right to worry: when I came out to my first boyfriend, his immediate response was, “Wow, that’s weird!” From top to bottom, Georgia’s journey rang with the authenticity that only occurs when an author writes from personal experience, and it was refreshing to read a dedicated asexual story from an author who was clearly channeling their own coming out experience. 


While I may no longer require asexual representation myself — I’ve long since come to terms with my sexuality, and have moved on from my need to see myself represented on the page and screen — I am still thrilled that a book this personal exists for every other asexual and aromantic person still trying to accept themselves. According to statistics, approximately 1% of the population identify as asexual. In that regard, asexuality is one of the loneliest sexualities in the world; not only is the asexual community extremely small, it’s also a sexuality naturally associated with isolation (although this isn’t necessarily accurate). When you’re asexual, it’s easy to convince yourself that you will never find someone who will love you without sex involved. It’s incredibly lonely and alienating, especially when you don’t have any asexual peers or have access to asexual representation. That’s why this book is so valuable:  it’s asexual representation, which normalises asexuality itself,  but it also normalises the process of realising and coming to terms with your asexuality.  It takes Georgia a long time to accept herself; she spends months struggling with self-hatred, furious at herself for being intolerant of sex and romance but unable to happily behave any other way. Her path to self-acceptance is emblematic of the importance of asexual representation, and what’s at stake without it. To quote myself, at length, in an article I wrote several years ago for Craccum magazine:  


Asexual representation matters. It matters because I spent the majority of my life wondering what was broken inside me, because there was nothing to teach me that broken was the farthest thing from what I was [...] It matters because of all the people who will wrongly identify because they never knew asexuality was an option. It matters because people say to me, “you just haven’t met the right guy yet!” and insist that my asexuality can be ‘cured’ if only I sleep with the right person. It matters because being told that you’re weird by someone you really care about hurts, because being asked if you “just lie there” is an easily avoidable ignorance. It matters because all representation matters. It matters because no one should have to spend seventeen years feeling isolated and alienated and broken. 


I  may no longer need asexual representation, but hundreds of thousands of people do, and I think Oseman has done a wonderful job of portraying asexuality for the purpose of normalising it, as well as for the purpose of allowing asexual people to feel visible and validated. 


As much as I think this is an important book that achieves its representational goals, I am nevertheless too sensible of the defects that I found while reading. Although Georgia’s character arc was a rousing success, I didn’t particularly enjoy the novel plot-wise and felt that the B-plot lacked motive and conviction. Sunil, a friend Georgia makes at uni, is a cinnamon roll and must be protected at all costs, and her roommate, Rooney, reminded me pleasantly of Reagan from Fangirl, but I found Pip irritating when I was obviously meant to find her quirky and endearing, and Jason had little more personality than a slice of white bread. The dialogue was a touch cheesy and unrealistic, I do think that Oseman went too heavy on the pop culture  references, and the side romance/conflict felt orchestrated and lacked convincing chemistry. Indeed, without the saving grace of Georgia’s sexual crisis, I most likely would not have liked this book. This might be more of a problem from my end; I have outgrown young adult fiction, and find the whole genre a lot more cheesy and annoying than I used to. If this book had come out five years earlier, I’ve no doubt that I would have adored it and that it would have meant the world to me on all accounts. Unfortunately, I’m a bit too old to enjoy the volume of Scooby Doo references that Oseman chose to include, and found them to the detriment of my enjoyment of the novel as a whole. 


Despite my personal criticisms, Loveless is a successful novel that achieves what it set out to do and creates a much-needed safe space for asexual and aromantic people to see themselves and their personal journeys represented in popular media. I admire Alice Oseman for publishing something so obviously and deeply personal; it takes a great deal of courage to lay yourself bare on the page for the whole world to see, and I hope she knows how much her bravery is going to help people who feel lost and alone. 

Saturday, 27 June 2020

MY DARK VANESSA by Kate Elizabeth Russell (2020)



“‘I just need it to be a love story, you know? I really, really need it to be that.’”


In the wake of the #MeToo movement, My Dark Vanessa takes on a prescience heretofore unseen in feminist fiction. Set against the backdrop of such scandals as the Harvey Weinstein bombshell in 2017, this scorching debut follows a troubled young woman named Vanessa Wye who, at age 15, entered a sexual relationship with her English teacher, Jacob Strane, who is 36 years older than her. Seventeen years later, another former student has made allegations of sexual abuse against Strane, and Vanessa is forced to redefine “the great love story of her life — her great sexual awakening — as rape” (Russell, 2020). 


When the pair first meet, the reader can instantly identify Strane as a predator. Vanessa feels unremarkable and unexceptional. She carries a moroseness that rejects companionship even as she silently longs for a friend, and Strane detects this insecurity immediately. Vanessa feels invisible, so he makes her feel noticed: “‘no one ever notices anything I do’”, she laments, to which he replies, “‘That isn’t true. I notice you all the time’” (Russell, 2020). She is lonely and friendless, so he manipulates her loneliness “into a sense of uniqueness”, telling her that he prefers to be alone, too — although Vanessa’s first impulse is “to say no, I don’t like being by myself at all”, she wonders if “maybe he’s right. Maybe I’m actually a loner by choice, preferring my own company” (Gilbert, 2020; Russell, 2020). He compares her red hair to an autumn maple leaf, compliments her clothing and her sense of style, presents her with poetry he hasn’t assigned the rest of the class because he “can tell” that she, like him, is a “dark romantic” who likes “dark things”,  and over time, the dedicated personal attention has the desired effect: not only does Vanessa feel special, she feels that the only person who sees her specialness is Strane (ibid). He grooms her expertly for someone who claims to have never been in a relationship with a student, and even this, he twists to his advantage: Vanessa feels even more special when Strane tells her that she is the first student he has been with, who is worth the risks of engaging in an affair so illicit. 


Strane holds these considerable risks over Vanessa’s head throughout their relationship. He openly acknowledges that if they get caught, he would be arrested and convicted of sexual assault of a minor, yet his main concern isn’t that he will be caught doing something illegal; instead, he emphasises that if he is arrested, they will no longer be able to be together — he knows that Vanessa feels misunderstood by everyone except him, and that the looming threat of losing this refuge will keep her complacent. He also emphasises how much he stands to lose: he could lose his job, his reputation, his freedom, but what will Vanessa lose? Nothing. Wrought with anxiety, Vanessa begins to see things from Strane’s point of view: “I’ve been wrapped up in my own frustration and impatience, never considering all that was on the line for him or how much he’s already risked [...] Maybe all along he’s been the brave one and I’ve been selfish. Because really, what risk is there for me?” (Russell, 2020). It’s genius, really, to emphasise how much Strane stands to lose, because knowing how much is on the line makes Vanessa feel even more special — he could literally be sent to prison for being with her, yet he continues their relationship because she is worth the risk of losing everything. 


The most significant gift Strane gives Vanessa is a copy of Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov, which becomes Vanessa’s key reference for understanding her relationship with Strane. When he gives her Lolita, Strane knows that Vanessa will view it as a model of the relationship developing between them. Here is where fiction and reality begin to merge; Vanessa’s idolisation of Lolita draws from Russell’s own girlhood relationship with the novel. Since its publication in 1955, Lolita has divided readers over whether or not the relationship between Humbert Humbert and Dolores Haze is love or rape, and as a young girl, Russell fell into the former category. The idea of the sexual power that underage women hold over older men is disturbingly omnipresent in popular culture, and seeing this glamorization of relationships between young girls and powerful men directly influenced Russell’s interpretation of Lolita:


Looking back on that era, [Russell] recalled the Rolling Stone cover with “teen dream” Britney Spears in her childhood bedroom, a Teletubby snuggled under her arm, her cardigan parted to reveal a silky black bra. On TV, politicians were castigating the president for lying about an affair with a 22-year-old intern, but no one seemed to think of him as an abuser — not even the intern, who maintained for years afterward that she’d been in love and who has only recently said she’s “beginning to entertain the notion that in such a circumstance the idea of consent might well be rendered moot.” Watching it all play out, Russell was riveted. “If you swept away the politics,” she said, “what was left was what I perceived then to be an intense, romantic affair” (Shapiro, 2020).


It’s this naivete that Russell wanted to portray in My Dark Vanessa. In Lolita, Humbert Humbert claims that he was seduced by Dolores and her impossible charm, and Vanessa entertains this same fantasy: she is seducing Strane, not the other way around. She identifies strongly with one particular line from Lolita: “she stands unrecognised by them and unconscious herself of her fantastic power”, a quote that gives her an epiphany: “I have power [...] Power over him. I was an idiot for not realising this sooner” (Nabokov, 1955; Russell, 2020). Once again, Strane has successfully manipulated Vanessa into thinking that she is the one in command; there can’t possibly be anything wrong with their relationship if Vanessa is the one responsible for it. 


Seventeen years on, Vanessa remains shallowly convinced of her consensual participation, but her conviction is shaken when an article appears online, accusing Strane of sexually harassing its author, Taylor Birch, while she was his student. Taylor reaches out to Vanessa, hoping to speak with her about Vanessa’s alleged affair with Strane, but Vanessa refuses, disgusted that someone would accuse Strane of something so vile when she ‘knows’ that he would never do anything without asking for consent. Yet Taylor’s article triggers an instinct in the back of Vanessa’s mind that she has been repressing for nearly two decades: that in such a circumstance as her relationship with Strane, consent “might well be rendered moot” (Lewinsky, 2018). Yet how can Vanessa let go of her responsibility for their relationship after clinging to it for seventeen years?  In order to live with herself, she must have been complicit, because without this, she is left with nothing but a victimhood she does not wish to claim; being an accomplice to their crime is “the only source of power she has left” (Gilbert, 2020). My favourite quote from the novel comes from one of Vanessa’s therapy session in the final act: 


‘I can’t lose the thing I’ve held onto for so long, you know?’ My face twists up from the pain of pushing it out. ‘I just really need it to be a love story, you know? I really, really need it to be that [...] Because if it isn’t a love story, then what is it?’ I look to her glassy eyes, her face of wide open empathy. ‘It’s my life,’ I say. ‘This has been my whole life’ (Russell, 2020).  


She has known it all along: Strane was abusing her, and she let herself be convinced of their relationship’s romanticism because the only other option was to be just another victim of a man in power. Girls in stories like Taylor’s are always victims, and Vanessa never saw herself as one because she did not want to be one: “I’m not a victim because I never wanted to be, and if I didn’t want to be, then I’m not. That’s how it works. The difference between rape and sex is state of mind. You can’t rape the willing, right?” (ibid). To be a victim is to relinquish your power, and telling herself that she was consenting in their relationship, that she was the one in control, that she decided what they did, is the only power she has left. 


A blistering analysis of the responsibility that women take on for their own assault, My Dark Vanessa is essential reading from which one will emerge with greater empathy for survivors of sexual abuse. Vanessa is an infuriating, but ultimately empathetic woman whose story has never been more critical, and as we travel deeper into the systematic unravelling of the patriarchal power that enables men to manipulate young girls in the way Strane manipulated Vanessa, I hope that Vanessa’s struggle to own her victimhood will make women in similar situations feel less isolated and alone. 


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